
Dear astronaught, rockstar, benevolent dictator, bestselling author and famous actor.
Yes, in my dreams I have been all of you. I am also aware that I will almost certainly never actually be any of you. I won't be an astronaught as I was born in the wrong country and hold the wrong beliefs [sorry but if the route to space is through the military then the price is too great]. I won't be a rockstar because even though I play a bit of drums and write some good songs – I am too old and not focused enough, I may at best be an occasional musician.
I won't be a famous actor because I don't have the looks and frankly when I was at the point in my life where I should have pursued it, I didn't. I won't be a benevolent dictator of a great country because deep in my heart I know that power corrupts. Even if I get it and use it for good -eventually I would succumb to the seduction of abusing it. I won't won't be a bestselling author because I am just not focused enough on writing. I have started quite a few novels and never finished one. i've written many short stories and poems and I am good at those – but at least in part that skill comes from them not taking that much time. A truly good author has to make it a career. The effort in a good book takes many hours a day, every day for months or years. I simply don't see myself ever putting in that kind of effort into one activity without getting distracted (and going broke).
In short you are all the people that I may have been in another world, in another life. Instead I'm me. I'm all of you a little bit, and none of you completely. What you all have in common though is that those who get you put absolutely everything at stake to make it. That they risk it all, wholeheartedly and for everyone whom it pays off for – a thousand fail and lose everything.
The truth is I haven't given up on you – I have made a decision that there are things in my life too valuable to risk. My lady, my home, my life. I can't take the chance of losing those to become you, so I am content to keep them safe and let you all live on in my fantasies and daydreams.
We all need our little escapes sometimes, I feel almost blessed that I can escape into any of you by simply letting my mind go there. Imagination, that is my most precious mental gift. The intelligence I claim to boast is really just the same thing- imagination with a little bit of logical direction -and it comes with a bonus. Just by letting myself -I can be any of you, all of you, whenever I need to be.
When real life has the type of things mine does, only being you in my dreams is enough and when you add it all up – that is exceptional.
Regards
The mundane you with the dayjob.